Some things don't make sense...major ramblings ahead.

There is so much death around me right now. None of it directly but around.
It makes me appreciate life more yet I am still suffering with stupid anxiety that seems to be getting worse.
I want to work more..I want more clients. I am a photographer but a business woman I am not. So this means I have no clients.
Money sucks right now so that makes me want to work more. Not too much but 4-6 clients a month that order would be wonderful right now.

T has been sick and wearing on my nerves...yes, i feel bad for him but at 3 AM I just want to sleep.
This morning went smoothly, surprised me. There were no tantrums and no whining....just goofy kids getting ready for the day.
T will miss school today. Saddens me because he only gets two days as it is.

It's a different year for sure....

Last year I made some very good friends. This year our kids are in different classes. Wy got the class that lines up up with the second graders. The other two moms line up next to each other. So today one asked me to go get coffee with her. So I did and the 2nd mom came too. It felt so good to be out with them. We were talking and come to find out the first friends MIL died Sunday night...I had no idea. We were so close last year..arg...i just feel awful. Then they start talking about all the stuff they do together in the mornings....i feel sad.
I feel sad that those two are close now and i feel like the third wheel. It used to be that the first mom and me would do everything together and the second mom would come along when she could.
It was the same way over the summer...they called once to invite me over. When i went they talked about all the stuff they had been doing all summer. I never got a call. Sure i could of called them but i wasn't doing anything. I did call a couple times to chat. I saw them once over the whole summer.....
I suppose I am just having a pity party for myself. I am sure i'll get over it.

Monday...Monday....Monday...

I am gearing up to leave for Washington this weekend. this Monday is lazy Monday so that tomorrow and Wednesday can be spent kicking butt getting the house and meals in order for Mr. Fun. This way I can come home to a clean house.

JJ doesn't like the bus very much. So I have decided that I will take her and pick her up. We did the trial run today and I can walk the boys to school, walk back home and still have her to school in time, before the bus.

Went by the preschool this morning..so much more paperwork to fill out. T is so ready to go. I found out his teacher has taught preschool for 16 years ..LOVE that!! I can't wait to meet her tomorrow and I can't wait for T to start. I was talking with the director and T was being his silly self..she said she may have a new favorite student. I giggled and said "if you only knew" . This kid is going to be the class clown. I am hoping that he loves preschool as much as I think he will.
He asked if i was going to stay with him at school and I explained I couldn't. He seemed like he accepted that answer. Maybe too easily..lol. He may be the screamer I have yet to have for preschool.

I survived the first week...YAY for friday.

Now Friday's mean something to me. Tomorrow morning I can sleep as long as my kids allow me. Of course kids bounce back quickly. Today I didn't have to wake any of them. One by one they slowly wandered out to the living room demanding breakfast before it was even time to eat.
JJ has had to ride the bus twice this week and I don't think she likes it. It makes for a much longer day and being in close proximity with other kids she finds intimidating. I have decided that I will pick her up and only have her ride the bus to school when Mr. Fun isn't able to help in any way. That is why I stay home after all.....to be there for my kids.
We have also decided that JJ won't be dancing this year. T starts preschool and that cuts into the budget heavily. She did mention playing softball through her school program. I would LOVE that.
I would have a jock princess...that would rock.

So far so good...

Everyone is enjoying their school days. There wasn't any tears either..so far. I have to take Wy to school tomorrow and I am anticipating that he will cry.
JJ is going to ride the bus tomorrow..i hope that goes well so i won't have to take her or pick her up.

I had Wy's open house tonight and at first I wasn't happy with his teacher. Tonight I left there very pleased with her and I am excited to watch him and help him grow this school year.

I am hoping that I get the same feeling as I leave G's open house.

JJ likes all her teachers. She's not too sure about her science teacher but I am sure she'll come around and learn to like him. I am hoping that algebra isn't too hard for her and her love for math doesn't suffer.

T starts on the 26th..kets hope he loves it just as much a sthe other kids loved preschool.